I had developed a pattern since November 1st, of spending every waking second that I was not at work, tethered to my desk.
IT WAS AWESOME.
But, since December is in full swing, all the stuff neglected in November is crying out for attention. I had started to like ignoring it... but, you know.
I get up at 5am, go with obligations until approximately 6pm. Cook diner. Choose that evenings activity. Go to bed too late. You get what I'm saying. So the point of this long and boring post is this: on average, I write three days a week. THREE. ouch. that's less than HALF of my goal.
Because on the days that I run myself into the ground, I skip writing and reading to fit in eating and sleeping and time with loved one... and laying on couch like a zombie, too exhausted to even take off my shoes.
Why does this matter? Sure, I'm writing, and hey... that's great, but it's like when you're really into a television series, and you go a really long time without watching it. You start to forget why you thought it was so great.
In the words of Stephen King: "The narrative thread begins to fade, the characters stale off and begin to feel like characters... and for most writers, that is the smooch of death."
That is what runs through my mind every time I sit down to my keyboard after an extended absence. I feel like I'm "playing writer". I realize this is common, and that keeps me going.
Yesterday was tough. I stared at my screen for hours, trying to reconnect. I succeded, but wow... a lot of wasted time. I could have easily avoided that hassle by being just a tad more diligent everyday. Just making sure I, at least visit my characters on those busy days.
I have started keeping writing notebooks with my inspirational pics and scribbles with me at all times. Also, I am sure to only listen to my playlist, the exact same playlist, hoping to recapture some of that feeling I had the previous writing sessions.
I feel like if I just put this out there, a solid goal, to write EVERYDAY, not just my days off, that it will solidify my resolve. Even just 500 words on my busy days would be a big help in keeping my story fresh in my mind.
I don't want to be a bad housekeeper, or absent minded employee, but I do want to spend more time brainstorming.
Every writer faces these. They make it work. So can I.